XYZ is here longer than I ever imagined....

[XYZ]

I do "think", I don't "know". And I'm not assuming to know. Her words did at least indicate a step towards that if not all the way, and I won't assume too much...

Interesting that this afternoon she has checked in with me 3 or 4 times to just see if I'm "ok".... And in MC, she said that "he's the only one that can make me feel this bad because he's the only person I love this much". That was powerful, hard to hear, and good to hear all at the same time.

Things are going in a good, really good direction. Sorta like driving from New York to LA -- it's a long F-ing way, but if you're headed West you know it's the right direction.

I'm just drained and I think (there I go again with "think") I've taken that out on this board by staying away.

I'm back in the spot, where I can't decide if this board helps me or hurts me. It's both. Sometimes, it's a God-send. Other times, it keep me in the soup and I need to get away from it.

I'm still here and lurking, just haven't felt up to writing lately. HOWEVER, things are better - the best in a year - and getting better. I'm (cautiously) optimistic.