And the beat goes on...

[luvmyhubby]

Tel,
I found that having hope made me feel worse as bad as that sounds. When I actually went on and treated it like it was over i felt better in a sense. I was dbing my heart out of course i backslid but when I was really on course and saw litte positive signs..Then Wham! I discovered the OW and how long he had been with her.. So as hard as I tried to keep things together and to work on it all it didnt matter to my H. He was using the situation to his advantage all my dbing and positive moods etc.

This made me realize that having my H move out and all of the things he did was not all about me. It wasnt about everything I had done no matter how bad he pushed it all back onto me. My H had his own path in his head and he needed to follow it. In order for my H to follow his path he had to slice me away to feel life without me.
Just remember it does take two people to get into this situation. It also takes two to get back into a healthy m. So your W moving out may be really good for both of you even though it seems like a knife in the heart right now. You will get to a point where you might even enjoy being with yourself alone. You might even find that you like yourself ...

I had a friend tell me that I was more like the girl in High School that she knew and I was happy. Weird how I put out those vibes while Im in such misery.. It just shows that you will be better and stronger for dbing and working on you.... No matter the outcome!!

Take it one breath at a time...