Mornings

[Lonely Room]

Thank you grr, at least the two of us know how this hurts and tires our bodies.

Last night I took the decision that I would sleep well! So, I decided to take sleeping pills. For the first time in more than 3 months I managed to get more than 4 or 5 hours of sleep!

I woke-up at 7:20am and couldn't believe!

Even stranger: I didn't wake-up sick, or sad or fearful... I woke-up angry with my wife, clearly seeing were she also failed, and that some of my failures in our marriage had roots in her owns.

It was quite invigorating I must confess, and I didn't feel any guilt. At that precise moment, and for the next couple of hours, I was ready to fill for divorce myself! And my wife wasn't that perfect goddess any more, she had faults and lacks! And I guess I went to bed last night already feeling a bit like that.

Those feelings are a bit gone now, and I'm a bit sick and sad again.

How can you explain this?!?

Regards.