im suppose to go away with my son and im having bad panic attacks because i will be far from home and i wont have my dog with me. she is like my therapy dog. i was really looking forward to the trip but yesterday i had a break down and all of this stuff with h really got to me. i think h is going to go away w ow when we are a way and it really hurts me. this is affecting my relationship w my son too because i had an angry outburst yesterday and told him i dont want him working with h any more, and son wasnt listiening to me to help me get stuff together for trip and i got really nervous.. im sorry i told son to work with h everyday this summer i feel like he is going to take him away from me. i think what set this off was h friend came to my house to check my a/c because i asked son to ask h if he knew an a/c man and h sent this guy over that i dont really like and i got really upset after he left knowing he sides with h and ow.
