"more of the same" from my W would be it is a set up... to me, that's the "worst"... so I'm prepared for the worst... and yes, I think about the better possibilities...
My comments below, I would not be prepared to share with my W at this time. Not because I want to withhold from her. But because I'm not sure they're set in stone, atm...
I am still trying to get my financial situation on the upswing. This is the only sticking point for me in my life, right now. It's not abnormal and it is not relative to any national or global economic downswing. Just a normal thing for me as I figure out my newest, career move...
Other than that, I'm liking my life.
The thing is, I'm... I don't think the word is torn, but I don't have a better word for my feelings right now. I do not like my W. Not because I am angry with her. I'm quite sure that I do not like her... She's not someone that I would normally hang out with and spend any significant amount of time with...
I know why I liked her, why I chose to love her... and I have no regrets of our time together... but what I know now about the qualities of a person I would want to spend the rest of my life with... there are many of hers that "turn me off"...
And I don't want that to come across the wrong way. I'm sure I have a lot of characteristics of someone she would not want in someone she hitched up with...
That being said, aside from the kids... I'm pretty good with not having to deal with her drama. In my past, prior to meeting my W, I had distanced myself from others who were caught up in drama and didn't know how to or wouldn't let it go... I know the drama in my W's life...
If my W's words were a sign of genuine warmth... well... they're words... I'm looking for actions... more specifically, I'd be looking for indicators that she would be someone I would like to have a long term, close friendship with.
That's about all I can say, atm...
As far as I'm concerned... she just happens to be the person my kids hang out with, when they aren't with me...
