Quote: Looks like you see pretty much all negative stuff right now. Has it always been like this LL?
these are not the words of a waw..I repeat these are not the words of a clouded thinking waw....
yes things have pretty much always been like this....always exuses for falling asleep...always empty promises of just getting through a busy few fews...season...year...etc...I accepted it...believed it was all just a result of work...now knowing that he is capable of friendship of wanting to spend time with someone...it's rather hard to accept.
I wasn't as happy as I could be with the r before we married...when we married adjusted accepted...and got smacked in the face.
I'm not trying anymore...I'm not making suggestions any more...if h is content..he's content...there are no more words left for me to use to explain to him that I am not content but am also not looking for any major changes either...that with a few simple painless modifications we could both be more than content...for whatever reason h just doesn't want to give.
This is my year...I will still cook and clean because that is me that is what I like to do...I will still do nice things for h cause I just can't be mean..but I will no longer be waiting for him to come around and I will not always be available when he does!
This is my year...
I will go to the gym at least 3x a week if it doesn't work out with dd in the child care room then I'll go at night.
I will read more...
I will work on the art project I bought for dd's room...
I will make more plans with my friends both near and far
I will take more time to pamper myself...paint those nails funky colors, take a bubble bath etc....
