it's OK to feel yuck if you do things to change it the next time

so

if being with someone who gives you butterflies
makes you feel yuck because you don't think they feel that way about you
then stop putting your thoughts in their head
and
stop worrying about how they feel
and
enjoy the butterflies

because
being in the presence of my philosophy professor from college still gives me butterflies
he is married
i am with Cori
I don't want to be in a relationship with him
but I sure like those butterflies....
they remind me that I am alive

smile

alive is good