Life, the Universe and DBing

[LearningPatience]

Well, my funk only lasted a couple of hours, so that's good.

My MIL called this morning to talk about a trip I'm taking to CO around Labor Day. I'm planning on visiting SIL and SD and spreading my mom's ashes in the mountains. Figured I'd drive both ways. MIL asked if I'd be willing to take FIL's car out to SIL and they would fly me home from Denver. Seems like a good idea to me and a win for everyone.

Now that I've had a day to reflect, I wonder if I was too *nice* yesterday. Wasn't groveling for R, admitted I had my doubts, but freely entered convo with W where she admitted how angry my dark made her. What I didn't ask (and maybe I shouldn't) is exactly *why* it made her angry.

OK, get that lumber ready... in an effort to mend fences and 'keep the road home smooth and paved', I sent a FB friend request to W last night (who I unfriended per going dark) with the comment "Peace offering... I'm pretty cool to have as a FB friend. I'm also humble ."

I know I'll never understand why she thinks D will make things better when she even admits that it doesn't change any feelings, takes time and energy and leaves her even more financially vulnerable (but not poor, we both do alright). She complains when I cut her out of my life, yet one thing she told me last night was that she tries to avoid me, unless it's somewhere she really wants to go, then she'll just go anyhow. Um, ok then.

For someone who supposedly wants to R, I spend a fair amount of time looking for better apartments and jobs. I know I'm not done with her, but sometimes I wish I was. Anyhoo, enough time thinking about her, time for bed soon.