Going N/C wish me perseverance/strength

[Queen_of_Swords]

Update -
Nothing much has changed. I'm still doing what I'm supposed to do.
He accidently pocket dialed me from his cell phone at 5 in the morning I knew it was him because of call display. Woke me out of a sound sleep.
I (joked) texted him later that the least he could have done was make it an obscene phone call. Had fun pulling his leg about that, he did play along.
Later today he texted me he was on his way, I texted him back that he could take his time, I would be home at such and such a time.
He didn't read my text, and showed up on my doorstep as I was ready to leave to pick up the kids from camp. I said, " Sorry, I have to leave, I'll be back shortly, you should get yourself a coffee in the meantime, and I left.
When I came back he was waiting and I said nothing and went to open our home so the kids could drop off their stuff. he stayed in his vehicle and did not come to the door so I came out again to give him the documents and book he had lent me,( He did ask me how I liked it.) and told the kids to have a good time. Then I turned my back and walked away without looking back or waving.

The way I'm feeling ...I'd rather absolutely no contact with this man at all, and I get the distinct impression that if it weren't for the fact I'm primary custodian of our children, he'd rather I disappear too.

Am I a fool to even DB anymore? Is it time to sever all ties?

I'm starting to think life is far too short to love/want someone who doesn't love/want you back.