one more thing. you dont need to feel embarrassed here. everyone understands the stress you're going through, and everyone is human. and we've all slipped. if you want us to hold you accountable, we can do that.
come here to vent, and accept the advice with the understanding we're giving you the best we know how, but it/we may not be perfect either.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".