I've dealt with alot from h in terms of his "avoidant" and "passive aggressive" behaviour over the past decade or so...pile on to that the fact that h had an ow and left me only to return to show me he could be a whole present person when he wanted to and then returned once again to his avoidant ways. I kinda take that as punnishment not neccessarily by god but indirectly by god for giving me the choice and my choosing to put up with it.
I doubt I'll ever be happy in this r unless h makes some definate permenant changes and that just doesn't seem likely. He's already left once and that didn't change things for long, doesn't seem like there are any buttons left to push but that big red one and I haven't got it in me right now to push it all the way.
