She stayed in our house where she could see the changes I was trying to achieve, but I let my emotions take over and reacted badly to everything:
I snooped. I initiated R talks. I was sullen and moody when I should have been upbeat. I let my focus continually go to her instead of focusing on me. I did not give her the space and time she needed.
She reached her breaking point; she could not take living with me anymore with my behaviors being what they were. Now it's too late.
If you are a newcomer reading this, look at those 5 items above. Read them. Memorize them. Burn them into every part of your being. And promise yourself every day, every minute if you have to, that you will not allow them to happen.
I knew better, but I did them anyway. It cost me any chance I had of keeping our marriage intact.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
