why do I not want to accept that? why do I believe there is someone there just hiding? why do I believe h is capable of more? I stopped believing for a while and accepted that was "just him" but upon disclosure of ow he showed me anther side...that person I had met long ago..the PERSON he can be...I resented the fact that he hid that person from me for so long and it made me uncomfortable to think that the person had exhisted all along. I could no longer believe "that's just the way I am" was true...instead I realized that was just the way he was with me and he had another life where he was a person (and not just with ow as I've said before I'm not a part of his life other than I'm his wife) and I didn't like that feeling...wasn't so much about the ow as it was about feeling like I had been a fool for years..been kept as the "girlfriend" then made the "wife" you know the one that's just there for show but isn't a real r.
when h first came home he was once again a PERSON and it was nice now he's back to "that's just the way I am" and I can't stand much more of it.
and for all you wonderfull dbrs that want to help don't bother asking me what I was doing differently when he came home or at the times that he is more of a PERSON cause in this case it's got nothing to do with me.
