Today i have very many mixed emotions. I wait to see what the text results will be. I wont know until monday.This have been somewhat of a distraction for me knowing whatever the results will be there will be more procedures. Depending on what is found in the biopsy will determine the procedure. Im really scared. Another scare to add to my list. I cant tell you how hard it was to go through this procedure monday knowing my H was vacaying with OW and her kid. I just cried from the moment i entered the room. I have a great doctor who just sat there and comforted me and took her time. She tell me this isnt my problem or anything I did to make him choose this path he is on. Its his own deep problems that he will never get away from even with OW. I think of all the places he is taken her, and they are the same places that had such special meaning to us. Just last week he wrote our D and said he missed their dad-daughter time together but here it is a week later and he is having "TIME" with the OWs kid on vacay. How quickly they move on. He told me he would like me to keep him informed of the test results because he said he is concerned. REALLY? He would have been better off saying nothng. I am so afraid, scared of what all this is going to mean and what is going to happen. I do know that I have my kids and my family and alot of his family and so many friends old and new that support me. Really what does he have. The OW and a friend he has know for a while. Thank you all for being so supportive. I will continue to let you know what the test results will be. Either way there will be a hospital stay invovled and that will be a new experience without him there. Hugs to all of you.
