uuugghhh, again

just journaling here

h is leaving tomorrow for a few week tour

we went together, with our s, to a guitar shop

he was very nice to me there, showed me a guitar that he thought i would like

other than that, not much interaction

when we left he told me that two teenage boys were checking me out as i was walking toward him

he said that was probably disrespectful to him(i bit my tongue and didn't say that he they might have known that he had left me)

went out to dinner afterwards and then we drove home with decent conversation

so, tonight i feel yucky

but if i am in this for the long haul, i guess i must begin rebuilding our friendship

and i cannot worry about who he is flying in to meet him on the road and what he is doing.....right?

so i just wanted to write this down
it's better than calling him and telling him tonight was nice (right? right)

thanks for listening

BITS