Thanks. I keep beating myself up for not getting "better" faster, and then I remember that H spent 6 weeks feeding me false hope and lying, and I've only known about his affair for just over 2 weeks.

Need to remember that just because it feels like I've been hurting for years, I haven't actually.

Hoping to pick up my new car tonight. I told H I wouldn't be home until 7, so he could get some of his stuff out of the house before then if he wanted.

Sticking to my plan of being cordial and pleasant when I have to see him, and working toward not seeing him.

Does anyone have tips/ideas for going dark? He'll be 3 blocks away and wants to see S every day, but I think I can still keep contact to a minimum.


H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11