I'm worried that once we tell S7, that will be .. it for me. It's like I'm slowly realizing that it's not about H coming to his senses, because I think even if he did, it would be so hard to think about him doing this again the next time he's feeling depressed.

It's almost like I don't have any hope left that I can recover.


H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11