Brainstorm the first test of waters

[Lonely Room]

No, guys, I'm not obsessing! Trust me on that.

This is how I work: I've made mistakes in the last few days. Now, I'm trying to fully understand what exactly happened in my mind and emotions to make sure that it won't happen again.

I won't communicate with my wife again for the time being. I'll wait to see what happens. I planted the seed, I said what was on my mind, that eventually we need to have a chat with each other, and now I'm done.

What was making me desperate was the limbo situation I was living in. She dumped me 7 weeks ago in the worst moment of my life, while I have to support my mother's fight with cancer. I had to almost start a new life in a place where I have no family nor friends.

And she didn't even have the dignity to tell me what exactly she wants after 7 weeks, while she's moving on, meeting socialising groups, re-decorating the house, etc.. What I feel is that she's like a monkey that only releases one branch of the tree when it's secured to the new one. And I'm the branch that is being left behind. Tell me about dignity again! What I did was exactly that, maintain my dignity, while externally it might seem exactly the opposite.

Thank you all, cheers.