I cancelled my procedure because of H. I found out that he is on vacay with the OW and her child. I was devasated. I thought to myself while I am laying on a hospital table he is having fun in the sun with her. How could this be? My kids got so upset with me. They said some pretty harsh things, that I know were only to try and make me realize how important it is to take care of me. My D said to me that she needs atleast one parent at her wedding so I went to the procedure. Believe it was hard going alone. Something H should have been there with me. I dont have any results yet. Not until next week. It was painful but pretty quick and it seems there is more pain now. But that is to be expected. Im just very tired. Thank you so much for your concern. I really cant believe all the wonderful people out there that care care so much. I truly wish I could give you a hug. Believe me I need one. SO while he is vacaying for a week in the sunshine state with her having a grand ole time I will try and try and try to make it through this. So many people lately have told me its not about me that this is all about him and his non acceptance of what he cant face. As much as I despise the OW i also feel sorry for her because she is involved in a relationship of lies. Thank you for you prayers. Please keep them coming and i will do the same for you. I dont know if we are allowed to give out email addresses or anything on this post but if you know could you let me know. Thank you for everything. You are a great help to me as are so many others.
