Can I save my marriage? (long; please be patient)

[MadeToSucceed]

a girl - Thanks for the encouragement.

CS - I kind of want to take some cooking classes believe it or not. I've always enjoyed cooking and wanted to take some classes at a local Whole Foods or something just for the fun of it. Gonna work on smoking some different foods too this weekend maybe.

I've kept football in my life but I'm pretty conflicted about football now given the OM is in the NFL. I was actually a huge fan OM prior to all of this and even enjoyed rooting on his team because a couple of my college teammates play with him but I'd be lying if I said my entire mood is kind of soured to the game now. It honest to God has been tough for me to watch ESPN...and as a man that loves the game and sports in general, that's tough for me but I'm trying to get back into it. Especially now that the lockout has ended. I want to find a flag football league to get involved with maybe.

Today was interesting in that I've been thinking all along our next court date is September 12th when we meet with the mediator - I was wrong. We meet on October 19th. I guess that's a good thing because it "buys me more time" to see how this thing continues to play out. That being said the August 5th move out date still looms and she hasn't circled back to say whether or not she's ok with me staying longer.

She didn't contact me today and I didn't contact her but I did find out an interesting tidbit. I have a good friend of mine who also runs track. I'm in his wedding in November and he said last night he messaged my W and asked her if she wanted her maiden name on her invitation to the wedding. He said she responded this morning and said "No. Leave it as my married name. I think I'll still be my married name." Or it went something like that. I know...I know. Don't read too much into it. It could just meant she didn't expect it to be D by the time she receives the invitation. My friend (who knows the details of our sitch) just said he found her response to be interesting.

I guess I'll just go ahead and try to get some rest. Here lately I haven't been sleeping well...really the past 2 or 3 nights because her recent behavior has my mind racing. Trying to remain strong and holdout from messaging her until she contacts me. Tough because she's traveling from one country to another and I typically like to wish her well or send her a prayer but I suppose I can pray for her to myself just as easily as I could with her knowing/participating/allowing me to pray for her.