Can my relationship be saved?

[a girl]

Some thoughts on GAL - I'm trying out for a choir here in the area - hopefully that will start up in the fall. Also, since H will have S7 for dinner 2 weeknights a week, thinking I'll start working out after work. (Whatever happens, I want a firmer tushie!)

Also a couple of single parent support groups in the area I might check out.

Weird behaviour from H tonight - very friendly, made pizza for everyone for dinner. I was packing for S7 to head to camp for 4 days, so H offered. I later thanked him and said "This is the last night you'll have to wait until he goes to bed to leave" and he said, "Well, yeah .. that's why I wanted us all to have dinner ..."

If I didn't know better I'd think he was having second thoughts, but earlier in the evening he talked about movers, so clearly that's not the case.

Talked a bit about how child support, etc, would break down - he seemed surprised to learn that even if we do a 3 night/4 night split in the end, he'll be on the hook for almost $1k a month + 65% of all S7 expenses (child care, summer camp, sports, etc).

Again, would be nice if that was a wakeup call, but he and OW are "in love", so I guess not.

He seemed reluctant to leave, but it could be that he was waiting for S7 to go to sleep. I finally said, "Why don't you go tell S7 you have some errands to run and you'll see him in the morning and then you can head out?" But he seemed content to just sit in the living room and chat. I was starting to have a hard time with it, though, and wanted to be a little more in control.

Anyway. Although my head says it's over, my heart isn't totally there yet. Tough stuff.