Not having a particularly good day. Wanted to go to the gym tonight, but H was 'too tired' to stay past 7pm to let me go. (long story and he was a bit mean in my opinion tonight, and I'm annoyed for letting him get to me). So I'm thinking that I might want to start dating - nothing serious (I have no desire to sleep with anyone else either right now), just dating, hanging out, getting to know some new people. But then I wonder, how in the world do I even start - and where in the world would I meet anybody, and finally, who in their right mind would date a separated mother of two very young children. I know I personally would be weary of dating a separated man - as I know first hand, that not everybody is separated by choice. I just can't help thinking lately that someday I will find someone who loves me as much as I love them... b/c clearly that is not the case in my marriage. I am just so sick of these crazy emotions that are all over the freaking place. And I am getting angry at myself for feeling this way. Why can't i just get over it already and walk away. Sigh...
