Going N/C wish me perseverance/strength

[Queen_of_Swords]

Hi Brian, thanks for checking in, you're a sweetheart.

I'm still frustrated with the situatin somewhat, but I made the decision long ago if anyone is going to pull the trigger on our M and start proceedings it's him. I have "taken" enough responsibility on in my life with out this added stress, and it will be a stress.

About myself I feel good, there is always room to improve but right now, I'm not the same devastated, emotionally fragile, self-esteem blown to hell person I was. I have done a lot of healing a lot of evaluating and self discovery, a lot of forgiving of myself and and others.
I am getting much better at having few expectations/letting go of attachments to people/things I thought I needed for my survival, and just focusing on controlling that which is in my control...me mainly.
I thank you for your prayers Brian, I appreciate them greatly.
I still haven't found my God connection, but I am listening to that very quiet voice inside of me.
I've been ignoring it too long and overruling it with logic and what seems more sensible at the time, to my cost.

Hope all is well with you and I think about you/pray for you often as well.