Hey all, Starting the MC this week for the first time in the 4 yrs of this MLC process. I am excited but nervous. Excited, because H is the one that actually suggested he would like to try it to avoid these break downs happening again in the future. Nervous, because I want to focus on the ways to get healthier and not focus on the past hurts (which I know will end up being brought up so the C can understand how we got there).
I know my H will be very awkward and so will I to let a lot of the past feeling come out. I hope it will be for the best.
We are still living apart, I am going to alanon, and we have been doing lots of fun things- camp, trivia, hanging with friends and family, getting back into watching our season tv seires we used to love, dinners out, He even cooked ME dinner the other night too-(wow its been a while), etc...
The other day, he was apologizing for stinking at getting sober. I told H ,Its ok, & that I know I am not his boss or his keeper or his little "god". He thanked me very seriously and told me how much he appreciates it. I can tell his wheels in his head are spinning about his whole alcoholism/sobriety issue. I will let him keep figuring these things out for himself, as I am patient and loving and keeping the focus on me.
