I re-read your post and there is actually good information in it.
My wife has called me today four times. I have not called her back though. She called to tell me about a new church she attended with our son and she sounded very upbeat and happy. I didn't know how to handled it so I decided not to call her back. She then called again this evening and didn't leave a message and then called one more time and again didn't leave a message. This is very uncharacteristic of her since our seperation. I don't know what to make of it other that she is probably having a good day.
Number one reason that I don't want to call her is because I don't want to hear anything that is going to cause me to feel pain right now. I need a break from the pain of seperation and divorce. I am not, not calling her because I am so strong or practicing these prinicples it is more because I am afraid to call, unless it has to do with our child.
The last time that I spoke to her about our marriage she gave me the "I really want to be friends" stuff and I told her at this time that I cannot turn my emotions off like that and being friends was not possible right now, but I was willing to be amicable regarding the divorce and regarding dealing with our child. She gott really angry when I said that and began crying, telling me that I didn't "give a damn about anyone but myself and this is exactly why we are getting a divorce, because you insist on your way and act like an ass." I responded by saying, "I am sorry that you feel that way." Which just made her even more angry."
I am only repeating this is because to illustrate that is why I don't want to call her. I don't want to argue anymore nor get yelled at.
"Someday we may look back on this and decide that Saving Private Ryan was the one decent thing we were able to pull out of this whole godawful mess."
