Im just going to give up.

[AloneAt35]

Rue, I have been thinking of you and praying for you. I am so glad you checked in.

I wish I could give you a hug in person. It was a very bad week for me as well. Like you, I saw *him* - the "new" him - and it hurt like heck. But you and I made it through Rue, yes we did.

Please let us know how your procedure goes tomorrow. Please pour your heart out whenever you need to. We all understand.

I'm thinking of you Rue, you are not alone. Stay in the day, stay in the moment. I know you feel you have no chance left for your M, but that is just a feeling. It is fear of the future, and it is a feeling that is getting in the way of you surviving THIS day, which is all we have to do.

The more we fear or try to predict the future, the more we will suffer. It is the ONLY thing I've learned over this last 4 1/2 months since my bomb dropped. Its the only wisdom I have to share. This moment is hard enough without worrying about the future. We can guess what are futures will be, but none of us truly knows, so we have to let it go.