My H has asked for D on at least 4 occasions.....via e-mail. The last was a demand that I get a L to "do our D." I retained an L to cover my bases, and to learn my options, but it is not "our" D and I will not initiate it. It's been a year and a half since I retained the L and am actually on my second....my first left private practice. So I've paid for and have endured 2 initial consults. Some days I feel like I'm just being stubborn and prolonging the inevitable, but I still find it all so wrong.....occasional glimpses of the man he used to be make it harder.....but most of the time he is still someone I do not know. Makes it more curious that I still love HIM when he is not who he used to be.
Jack-thanks for pointing that out. The M is in my mind only now.....that and in the eyes if the law.
cwf- is this your first time here? The anger is hard to deal with, and doesn't get easier. My brain knows that I am worth the work----just as I'm sure you are. It's the broken heart that allows us to think we aren't.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
