Unfortunately by now my primary emotion toward W is that of bitterness and anger, and I wish it wasn't. She really was a wonderful person to me for so many years.
I swear, weekends are the worst for this!
I struggle with the same things - not bitterness, but anger. I don't want to hate him, but it's hard to separate him from the things he's done to me/the family over the last couple months.
Right now I'm just focusing on him moving out and then me seeing him only as needed to exchange S7.
After a few months, maybe when I'm not so raw, I might be ready to look at seeing him more, if that's what he wants. I don't know.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11