Grr, it wasnt a long vague answer at all. I know you are hurting and don't want to see you torturing yourself on how you shouldve or couldve handled it. We can be our own toughest critics, if you know what I mean.
i have began to fall back on this behaviour, i have not made a habit out of looking at texts, but yes, i have done it a few times
and of course the few times it has been done, i have not liked what i have seen
and it is something i don't want to repeat...it does not at all help me to move forward
not at all
my h is playing in the city tonight and i have to take my son in to see him this is especially an awkward situation for me right now and if i had not seen that he had been with someone else, it would have been a much better night all around
you know what, i had been getting stronger......day by day.....this set me back
at some point i will get to a place where i don't care that he is with someone else
right now i am not there
sorry if this is vague and not making much sense, i don't feel great at the thought of seeing him tonight....i feel nervous and a bit scared
i know that a week from now (hopefully sooner) i may feel very different and more sure of myself
but right now, i need to put on a happy face, as my son is thrilled to be going to see his daddy and make sure he has a wonderful time tonight
again, thanks to anyone who takes time to write....i know many of you are going thru your own hell and i am so very sorry
I did not find this vague at all. One last thing Grr, understand that no one will completely identify with your situation as we are each uniqe and have differing issues. What we will understand is your emotions and your actions as they pretty much are the same for all of us.
You understood exactly what I was saying to you in my not so gentle all the time way.
Posted on your other thread so we can continue over there.
