I appreciated your "impetuous reply" and I also appreciated this one!
I am finally coming to realize that he can't just flip a switch and be over her and that is REALLY REALLY hard for me because I resent that he put himself in that position to begin with and I am working through that because I know that it will not help anything in the future. I know that it will require a HUGE amount of strength and to be honest, I'm trying to decide if I have it.
My H just wants to move on and forget that anything happened and I do not find that in any way fair - to me and I guess it's not fair to him either.
He says that he knows that I am going to snoop and that just makes me wonder what he's STILL hiding. I worry that those feelings will never go away...ugh!! I'm beginning to think this is worse than the seperation, because then I had NO expectations and I was just moving on with my life and things were going GREAT!! Now they are in the toilet again and it makes NO sense to me!!!!
I'll keep you guys updated on how things are going as I'm going to have to have a talk with him and see how he feels about things.
Me: 31 H: 30 Kids: D9 Together almost 12 years Married almost 5 years EA began: 8/10 Separated: 3/11
