We really need to talk. You hit the nail on the head. I appreciate what you said. Its all so true. Im trying, trying so hard. THe hurt, guilt, sadness is still standing in my way. I would love to be able to talk to you. Your words and advice have hit a nerve. And to all the other responses from members of the board. I truly thank you for your words and advice. It means so much to me. I am in aw of how many kind people there are out there who are willing to help someone they dont even know. Please continue to write her for me. This was a very bad week because I saw him and it didnt go well. I also have to have a medical procedure done tomorrow that can lead to a devastating diagnosis. Im really scared about that. So there is so much going on. THank you all. I will write more later. Like I said I saw H on wednesday and it didnt go well. I feel I have no chance left. Thank you all
