cam, you start by saying that you are 100% to blame for this and then you go on to talk about all of her problems.

What I see is someone who is accepting all blame, but sees the fix in her.

This is wrong on both fronts.

You are BOTH to blame.

And the only fix you need to be concerned with is in you.

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