Last couple of days have been pretty good. He's back to being super nice and friendly to me. He has been staying after the kids go to bed again - but the length of time has been increasing again. The other night he actually put one of 'our' DVR'd shows on and (because this is a total 180 for me), as I was about to hop in the shower after the babes went to sleep, I told him he was welcome to join me, and he totally did. And he ended up staying until about 11 that night (kids go to bed at 7, if that gives you any indication). Still no hope in my heart right now though, as I'm pretty sure he's probably just horny. This is all just so strange to me. Every time I think I've accepted that our marriage is over, I start to take a closer look at 'us' and I just can't figure out why its over. Our marriage is better now that it has been in years (since before kids - which is where it all started to fall apart). We are good friends, we are still attracted to each other, we don't fight (but we also don't live together), we are pleasant, we laugh together, we simply enjoy each other's company. We'd both do anything for each other. We are both very generous towards each other... we have two beautiful amazing little boys, and our parenting styles are the same - all the makings of a strong marriage. Except for one little thing - he doesn't know if he's in love with me anymore. Oh and nothing makes him happy anymore - hence the antidepressants he started taking a few months ago (don't even know if he still takes them, or if got a refill or anything)... Its just so heartbreaking to know that despite everything, he doesnt think he is in love with me.. i have to wonder if he ever was
