Thank you both...I am still nervous about being there tomorrow, so I am taking a cue from JB and working out like a fiend. Might be sore as hell tomorrow!
Another strange phone call from H today, even after all the drama from yesterday. I started to cave and texted him I wanted to talk, immediately thought better of it and told him it was nothing when he called. I felt so stupid for texting in the first place, but knew I should keep my trap shut so I tried to just blow it off. Am I the only one who hits 'send' and immediately regrets it??
Anyway, he was in a really weird place this week and just would not let it go. Told him it was really nothing, that I shouldn't have sent the text, things are good let's not spoil it, etc. Nothing worked, and I genuinely tried to blow it off. He kept pressuring me, so I finally asked him if we were at a place where we were seeing other people (something I wondered after all his very late nights out but have not asked about). I didn't accuse, just told him I was curious since it had been so long since we discussed anything of that nature.
Wow! DBing has had an effect I would not have predicted...he thought I was seeing someone and that's what my 180 has been about. Ha! Kind of funny to me, but I guess I can see how he would go there. He said he's been thinking that for a week or so. I played it cool, just said I didn't think now was the time to date, at least not for me. He did say it would bother him if I was seeing someone, and that he wasn't seeing anyone either. Is it bad to leave him wondering? Wasn't really sure how to handle that part, but I did have to keep myself from laughing...
I just told him I was giving him the space he said he needed, and that I was working on my own life right now. We ended up talking for about an hour, the longest in a month or so. Trying not to feel too excited about this, or too anxious and jump the gun.
