More interesting behavior from my W.

I'm watching some movies at home around 1am this morning and get a string of texts from her:

W: I'm so angry right now.

Me: ?

W: I feel like it will be easier for both of us if you weren't there when I get home. I don't want anyone around me. No man. I can't take it anymore

Me: What are you upset about?

W: I don't want to talk about it... I'm just over everything. I have to focus on me. I'm done. I can't anymore. I cannot and will not ever put myself in a situation to be let down or hurt anymore. I hate the feeling. I give up.

Me: I can understand how that can be a frightening feeling and constantly unsettling.

W: I'm tired

Me: Sleep

W: Emotionally, and physically. I'm so angry and frustrated with myself

Me: I think we're all our own worst enemy. My mom used to tell me when I was younger, enough people will kick you when you're down so there's no use in kicking yourself. Its always easier said than done of course but I think I its abnormally normal for us as humans to feel what you feel.

W: I want to finally do things the right way in my life.

Me: I'm confident that when you are determined to do something, she will do it. So whatever that entails know that I'm behind whatever that means for you in terms of support. I believe in you. Try to rest.

W: I can't

Me: Makes you feel any better you're not alone. I'm up myself. Watching some movies. Try to get some rest. Have a good night.

Didn't hear from her anymore at that point. My guess? OM did something or she found something out about OM. Maybe she was just hurt/frustrated in the moment. I'll readress the house situation on August 1st if she doesn't bring it back up. I look at it with some positivity but don't want to look too far into it because like CS once said, if she's really changed, I'll know. Right now I think maybe she just feels bad about some specific situation...isn't really at a stage of repentance and R. Then this morning she actually sent ME two Bible verses via text before she went to practice. I told her to have a great day and I hoped she was feeling a little better.

She responded she was at practice and had to get it done despite how she feels. I didn't respond. That's the last I've heard from her today.


mid 20s
Tgther 7 yrs
W EA 04/12/11 PA 04/23/11
W filed 05/11/11
I moved out 08/05/11
Mediation mid Oct 11
D final Dec 11
Now what? ...2012