I just kept getting these weird feelings of please stay and please leave. I think some of it is from selfish reasons like if our marriage worked out I would have to give up my new friends because of how insanely jealous my WAW gets. We'd go back to doing nothing at all most weekends. I've gotten to where I like going out. I like hanging out with my friends. I feel better than I have in years mentally and physically. ... I guess what I'm getting at is that if WAW decided she wanted to work on our marriage I'd have to think really hard if I want that life back anymore. I know I still love her and everything but I dunno it's just all so confusing really.
Hollowed, I hear ya, man. I've had similar feelings. I don't want to go back to the same old, same old. The good news is your W doesn't want to go back to that, either. IMO, I think you need more time. More time to establish your new life. More time for it to be routine. Doing those things, IMO, will help prevent you from reverting back to the old.
