I tried to daydream, but my mind kept wandering

[ClingingToHope]

Rough night. Couldn't stop thinking about XW. D12 rode over there at 9 p.m. to see if she could stay there Saturday because she doesn't want to be here for D8's sleepover.

The house she was going to all of the kids have a nasty cold.

When she came back she said XW wasn't there and she wasn't answering her cell phone.

And I couldn't let it go.

I thought for a while when I would be able to let that go. Will I just wake up one day and not care? Or will I always care but just not think about it much?

I remember back in September or October of 2009 talking to a woman on the phone about divorce. I had to deal with her through work and she always seemed a little crazy.

She found out I was going through a divorce and gave me her story. She said finally, four years later, she feels normal.

That scared me. I told her I didn't want it to take four years. Now, it's two years three months since the separation and six weeks since the D became final.

I wonder which clock I'm working on. The split clock or the D clock?