First off, my H went to Miami to try to "win over" some VIPs for this company he is trying to get a contract with. He expected for them to sign on the spot and send him to Italy for an important meeting they were all attending. Well, he came home from Miami without a contract, and without an invitation to Italy. Now, he still could get the contract. They have invested a lot of time in him, and did not tell him "no", but it hasn't happened yet. He asked me to go to lunch after he returned, and I could tell he was discouraged. But to tell you the truth, I think it's good for his ego to come down a notch. But during lunch, I was very supportive.
This past week his mom's health has taken a turn for the worse. She now has double pneumonia and is most likely dying. It's been interesting, because I have been going to her nursing home and sitting with her often. This has helped H to work without worrying. He gets to the nursing home in the evening, and we usually have dinner and one night went out for drinks afterward. It has been, strangely, kind of a bonding experience. It has also reinforced, for me, what is important in life. Who cares about money, jobs, etc. Family is all that matters. I really hope H is getting that message, but who knows.
So, today was my 50th birthday. I was dreading it because H and I have shared every birthday since we were 21. Well, it was great. Several friends and family sent me flowers, cards, gifts, dinner, lunch, etc. Best of all, our kids gave me two tickets to a concert I wanted to go to, and ahead of time they asked H if he would go with me, and he said yes, it would be fun and he was looking forward to it. (wow)
Then, H asked to take me to lunch today for my bday. It was great and he even said a few things that were almost flirtatious.
Then, I got home and in the mail was a card from H. It has me so confused, and I have to admit, hopeful. Of all the hundreds of birthday cards he could have bought, here is what it said:
"For my wife, my friend, my love,
I want to thank you for everything you are to me...and let you know that I love the life we share."
then he wrote his own note saying that even with our challenges, he celebrates me and I am very special and that he looks forward to taking me to the concert.
?????? Now, sending me a card is one thing. But there are lots of sweet cards. But to pick one that says
for my WIFE for my LOVE
and for the return address, he wrote our home address. He hasn't lived at home since December.
So what does it mean? Gosh, I don't know. But for him to call me his wife, his love, and to be basically going on a date with me on Sunday (the concert) I'd be lying if I said I wasn't feeling a bit hopeful. But it seems that as soon as I feel good, the roller coaster starts going down hill again, so I'm prepared.
So I'll let you know how the concert goes on Sunday.
kermit
M50 H49 M 27 years D24, S21 Bomb 7/10 SEP 12/10 H files 5/11
Praying Hard for restoration! With God all things are possible!