Crap crap crap crap crap...

Backslid big time this evening. Came home from the gym, saw W's phone on the charger and looked. She's locked it again with a password. Last time she did that it was during her hot-and-heavy sessions with the OM.

I know, I know...I've been telling everyone else not to snoop and I do it anyway. And where did it get me? NOWHERE. Can't very well accuse her of being sneaky and evasive, can I? Now I get to fight with my imagination running away with all kinds of bad things.

OK...deep breath...tell myself, "Detach, detach, detach.STOP WORRYING ABOUT WHAT SHE IS DOING! I can do nothing about her stuff. Keep GALing and working on myself."

Let the 2x4's commence.


H 56
W 48
D27,S21
SS25
SS22 Severely autistic
M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs.
"I've never loved you" 3/7/2011
Separated 8/7/2011
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