Can I save my marriage? (long; please be patient)

[MadeToSucceed]

Sorry this post is going to be a little long. The last 24 hours or so have been interesting. Last night I decided to go out. I went out with some friends and had a pretty good time. Before going out I got a message from my W.

W: Hope I didn't cause an issue with u, ur mom and your paw paw. Sorry if I did. Night.

Me: No issue. Night. I didn't bring it up to my mom or PawPaw so there's no issue.

About 4am she messages me (it's 11am where she is in Europe).

W: Thanks for being my friend.. I really need a real one these days."

I woke up at around 730am and responded.

Me: You're welcome...but as I told you before...I'm here. You could "use" me more than you do.

W: Lol "use"

Me: Just saying I'm here and you can talk to me when you need to. I've become a much better listener believe it or not.

W: I believe it

So we didn't talk for the rest of the day and I got so busy I didn't really think much about her. That being said, I looked at the calendar and realized we had some legal things looming. On August 5th I'm supposed to move out of the house as laid out in the HEaring we attended on June 30th. Not worth trying to explain but she bought the house before we were married so it is only in her name.

Before she left for Europe we talked on the phone and she basically told me that since we are doing ok and being cordial and having positive convos and not knock down drag out ones, that she didn't have a problem with me staying in the house through August since she wouldn't be here for the majority of the time during August. I didn't push the issue anymore and haven't brought it up since. Well August is right around the corner so I messaged her this evening:

Me: I know it was extremely brief but when we actually talked before you left the states but on the phone you mentioned you thought it would be ok for me to stay in the house past August 5th as long as things were "ok" with us. So I guess the question here is a) is that still ok with you for me to stay in the house until I can actually get into my apt? b) if so, can you communicate that to your lawyer so we can get it in writing? I trust you but I don't want to violate a court order. And since I'd be staying in the house I wouldn't need to cash the $2k check you wrote. I'll just tear it up. I just don't wanna get hit with trespassing. I contacted the apt complex and they said I can be in the apt on Sept 15th (that's a Thurs) so if its ok for me to be out by the night of Sept 17th (a Sat) then I'd use Fri and Sat to move my stuff out (since I have work and class). Also since I'd be in the house for half of Sept we could redo whatever they said the Sept check "had" to be for. If any of this makes you uncomfortable and you'd just prefer to have me out I understand...I'll just have to figure out where to keep my stuff and where to stay for a month and a half. I'll stay out of your hair, I assure you. Just trying to avoid spending money I don't have and you being forced to spend money by the court when we can both save a little. I'm not trying to guilt you in anyway so I hope you don't feel like I am in anyway. Its just August is right around the corner and I gotta start trying to figure things out logistically.

W: That's a lot... Wow. I guess no matter where I go in the world.. There is no escaping the reality of what is going on. That's nothing personal towards you...

Me: I'm sorry. I wanted to wait until after today's meet because I wasn't sure if you were there in Monaco or running or whatever but I had to bring it up. I hope you understand the "new/updated" me has nothing to do with any of what I just asked you. When I sent all that it struck me that that may have crossed your mind. "Oh that's why he's acting this way." But its not. I'm just trying to be a better person and man so it really is authentic. This is Marcus. Some old mixed with some updates. I guess you don't have to answer the house ish today cuz we have til August 5th technically (the court move out date). But I had to bring it up and I'm sorry if I took you from a place of being able to escape it. Wasn't my intent. Maybe you let me know by August 1st? That's a Monday.

W: Sorry at this dinner...I'll respond in a bit

Me: Ok.

On top of that, my friend that runs track just came back from overseas. They were at a meet together and had to do a team building exercise. He told me that he whispered to her that he, his wife and baby missed her in their lives. He said my W basically responded and said "I know," then teared up and had to walk away before breaking down right in front of him.

I know I probably made some mistakes in my convos with her the past 24 hours but I tried to stay as neutral as possible and not put too much feeling into things. I've tried to end convos first and I've tried to end them in such a way that she would have to follow up with me to initiate more contact. I'm just not really sure what to make of this stuff. I haven't heard back from her so I guess she's at the dinner still. I'm watching a movie and may go meet up with some friends for dinner. Just kind of confused in the moment.