I'm off to see The Wizard

[~¤DG¤~]

Today is hard for me. Very hard.

I know why too. Because stupid me went and looked online at our cell bill and saw he was texting someone pretty much all night long last night and I feel like I've been kicked in the teeth.

I know, I went looking for trouble and I found it.
I was doing so well, and I just....relapsed.
It reminds me why I stopped doing it in the first place, BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT!!!!!

I think it's time for me to let go, and pursue a D.
He shows absolutely no interest in wanting to see, speak, or work anything out with me and I can't force him to want to so perhaps it's best for me to just let go and try to pick up the pieces and move on with my life.

After 5 months, I suddenly feel like I'm back at Day # 1.