Going N/C wish me perseverance/strength

[Queen_of_Swords]

Had a brief interaction with STBX the other night, when he dropped off our children. Circumstances were such that the contact could not easily be avoided.

I noticed something that had been flying under the radar of my consciouness for a long, long time.
I percieved it as "normal" up until now, but it is a definite strategy the kids are using in a wholly unconcious manner to feed their need for attention.
It appears my children are using divide and conquer methods between me and my STBX.
They choose to form a group of three by clinging to either one of us ( or a visitor) and engaging, distracting or otherwise drawing attention to themselves in such a way , the other party feels left out, frustrated and can't get a word in edgewise.

Texted this observation to STBX to note in future, so we can stop this and redirect our kids.

Other than that I have not had contact beyond, hello when answering the phone.

This is a lot harder than I thought it would be. Taking it one day at a time and trying to plan things so any contact is minimal.

As far as my emotions go...I'm feeling defeated and starting to believe there will be no restoration. and it's time for me to make a choice. Stay the course or look foward to a future with someone else.
I have GAL as best as I can, but nights are lonely after the kids are in bed.