XYZ is here longer than I ever imagined....

[XYZ]

Time to eat a little crow, and I'm happy to do it.

Dinner with W & kids tonight. W says to me (totally unsolicited) "I still have not heard back from (her contact on MC). I sure this is starting to feel to you like it's not important to you and I can see why it would".

What I should have said " Who called you and told you to say that? Jack or Harrier?" hahah.

I really said "Yes, I'm trying to see it from your point of view because I know you're really busy and only have like 8 minutes between patients, but I have to be honest and say that it is bothering me and it is starting to feel like it's not important."

Her: "I get that. It really is important and I'm sure it's frustrating for you."

Me: "Can I help? I can call them. Why don't you tell me a few times that work with your schedule and I'll call and get it done."

Her: "Oh that would be great. You sure you don't mind?" [Editors Note: Duh I totally f-ing don't mind. I so don't mind that I'd have done 4 weeks ago if you'd said ok when I first suggested it! But ok....all cool.]

She proceeds to tell me a few good times. We chatted about therapy and she commented that it will be painful and no fun. I said "yes, and it will be worth it". She said "yes, I totally agree. It will be worth it."

Before dinner I decided I would do some light flirting tonight. I did and it felt good. Nice. Even more eye contact than last week. At one point I told her that I was really looking forward to kissing her again. She replied that she was really looking forward to wanting me to kiss her again.

Only downside.... W made a comment about needing a vacation. I said "cool, I'll go" and winked. She said "no, not ready for that." Ok, guess I should expect it, but bit of sting. Oh well, shake it off. Big picture.

All-n-all, I'd have to say my mental attitude has pulled a 180 from this morning. Still a hard row to hoe, but at least we're hoeing. And I don't meant that in the fun way.