Letting go is hard to do!

[Seminolewind]

I have been thinking about what is right and what is important in my life. I pushed my D17 to make peace with my now exw because it’s the right thing to do for both of them. I had originally told her I wanted her to stay with her mom until this Thursday. Well that lasted two nights and D17 came and told me that she felt more comfortable staying with me at this point. That kind of broke my heart a little knowing that the two of them can’t see eye to eye. I understand how you can lose respect for someone but I think it would be tough losing respect for your mother. I guess it will take more time, I had a strained relationship with D17 when I was asked to move out of the house back in October. The good news is I did a dang good job earning her respect back. Like all of us know that are on this forum, you can’t make people change, they can only change themselves. I just hope their relationship gets repaired before the grandson arrives in December.

I can say that being divorced for a couple days hasn’t really bothered me as much as I had thought it might. I am not even sure what I should be feeling at this point, I just know that the sun will rise in the morning and if it doesn’t, most of what I think is very petty at that point. It’s funny, if I could have had the knowledge I now have about five years ago, I honestly feel I wouldn’t be in this situation. Then again I still make mistakes along the way but I know I am only human. I might need to move over to Divorced, But Not Done. I still have things I need to figure out about myself and what’s the rush?

The last goodbye is the hardest to say but I found a game I couldn’t play! This is where the cowboy rides away!

Heck I haven’t even saddled my horse!