Can I "fake" GAL?

[Very Confused]

I am totally consumed and obsessed, you are absolutely right DG. Thank you for your input. I know I'll have no choice to move on and seek happiness from within if he tells me he has made up his mind and wants a D. I guess I'm just faking my happiness around him for the time being. Well, I am happy during our interactions, then I go back to over analyzing and freaking out when they are over.

Unfortunately, I was completely oblivious as to how he felt during the M until he had totally checked out and told me he wanted to move out. So for now, my main goals are to work on keeping the house clean, be less selfish, be more caring and loving, and less jealous. After realizing he was right, I knew I had to make the changes for me, but he gave me the biggest wake up call of my life.

I think I need to read DB again and brush up. I think I've fallen off the wagon a bit.