Having some really odd mixed feelings. Yesterday my WAW asked me out to dinner. No R talk or anything like that just idle chit chat. While we were talking I found myself looking at her but kind of spacing off. I just kept getting these weird feelings of please stay and please leave. I think some of it is from selfish reasons like if our marriage worked out I would have to give up my new friends because of how insanely jealous my WAW gets. We'd go back to doing nothing at all most weekends. I've gotten to where I like going out. I like hanging out with my friends. I feel better than I have in years mentally and physically. My confidence level had gotten so low and now it's gotten to where I don't feel so much anxiety to go talk to people. I guess what I'm getting at is that if WAW decided she wanted to work on our marriage I'd have to think really hard if I want that life back anymore. I know I still love her and everything but I dunno it's just all so confusing really. which I understand jealousy and such is natural when friends of the opposite sex. Like I said though maybe I'm being selfish here or maybe not considering there hasn't been any talk of trying to work things out
