I'm starting to figure out it takes time to get people interested in my sitch. I thought my first post didn't make it but I guess it just took a few days. If nothing else a little journaling will be good for me.
Anyway, today is the 1Oyr. anniversary of our 1st date. My W hadn't remembered this for the past 3 yrs. It was always an important day for us before that though.
I'm doing good tough...no expectations! I know in some corner of her mind she is thinking of me...good or bad.
I'm not going to bother reminding her in any way what day it is. I just feel she knows.
Things are going well in the sense that we are getting along fine.
Something interesting is happening on my end though. I'm feeling more at peace with whatever happens with my sitch. I saw W last night when picking up S6 and D4 to take to my softball game and again this morning for W to pick them up. I really didn't feel much of anything when I saw W.
I think part of this is due to my GAL activities as of late an in the near future. Not much time to dwell on whats going on in my sitch. It feels good.
I went to a concert the other night at Red Rocks (for the first time in years) and I realized how there is a big world out there outside of my R to experience. Trying to enjoy life for the moment. Just to be clear it is all innocent fun.
I also feel like the emotional connection to my W is fading a bit. I'm thinking about her less and really starting to live my own life.
After going through this for the last 6 months I understand how quickly my emotions change so tomorrow I may be in a totally different place.
I wouldn't be here writing this post if my W and M didn't mean everything to me.
For now I'm in a good place. I can only imagine that this is a positive step in my outcome, whatever that might be.
I'm looking forward to hearing from some of you but if you're just stopping in I appreciate that too. ______________________
