This eve a friend who knew him stopped by + asked how these texts were going. I read her our last exchanges. Told her he didn't give me enough reason to justify putting my heart in danger. She said he absolutely did - that considering I'm dealing with a caveman, he has stuck his neck out in responding.(3 friends now all agree its more meaingful than he makes it sound) She also said no way would he text me if he had a woman in his life, or if he didn't want to talk. She pointed out that all of my messages could be ambiguous also. She suggested I invite him to an outdoor concert + tell him I'll be with friends if he wants to join us. Then its not a "date" but a friendly hang outing. If he comes, + if it goes well I could then suggest a drink or late dinner someplace following the show. She thinks if I suggest he can call somtime that he won't want to make that big step. But meeting in a group for a casual eve might be less risky for him. She's fully encouraging me - saying I have northing to lose. I am going to an event in a park fri night, but I think I'll still give it a rest. We had nice contact, I don't want to press. But I will reach out again when I feel ready. I have a neighbor who just reconciled with a woman he broke up with 10 years ago. They are on cloud 9. She had married + divorced in the interum. My friends parents reconciled after many years divorced. I'm going to a wedding in 2 wks for a couple that patched things up after a 2 year seperation. I know odds are against it, but it does happen. The other night I got a phone call from the boyfriend I had nearly 25 years ago. He says he knows I didn't get what I deserved from him and if he knew then what he knows now, things would've been differtent for us. He said at that time he thought these things just happen easily + often but now he realizes that its special + magic to meet someone to connect with. - I was blown away. That he even thinks of me! And proves that when you love, a piece of it endures. He wasn't attempting to reconnect, just wanted me to know he remembers me + acknowledges he blew it. Life is strange. Love is mysterious. And can be wonderful. My story w my exbf may not be over yet. I am doing ok with this uncertainty. I remain happy. I may be back here for piecing advice yet!
