(((hugs)) SC, I know exactly how you feel. I feel that way myself sometimes. I know it's hard, heck it's the hardest thing I've ever had to go through, but in the end you will be a much stronger woman having gone through all of this. I know right now it doesn't help for me to say this, but some day it will.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤