Thanks jb, the ironic thing is that I am getting excited about GAL and initially it scared the heck out of me.
What I am realizing is (and logically knew already) that I was extremely young when I started dating H and didn't know what my hobbies would be. Finding out at this age what I love to do is very exciting. I started dating H when I was only one year older than my oldest child. It is odd to think of it that way.
I think my kids would really appreciate seeing me doing things that I love as well. In the long run, they will benefit from a happier and healthier mom.
Trying to keep focused on the positive in a tough situation.